LETS GO :D !!!

4 months (referring to the last blog I had)… Its been 4 months since I last wrote something,anything… well, not literally, for I had the first two, make it three, months kept aside for my schooling work, not that dedicated to studies, but I was busy… and the last month left, this past month, I have been busy doing NOTHING… school’s been out, so has an order in life… I don’t remember what day it is, I don’t care to remember because everyday is the same day – nothing to do, no deadlines to meet, so every day is a MONDAY or a TUESDAY or any other day, doesn’t really matter much to me. Time flies by, it flew right by me and I was fine with that. It didn’t bother me that I had been doing nothing or anything productive. I have been awfully lazy these days, my hourly updates on Facebook plead innocence, but guilty I am. Today is not about anything in particular, or anything at all… I just feel like writing (typing) about anything, everything in my mind right now, and my mind is hollow… It’s a hollow hole that takes everything it sees, hears, understands, and sucks it into the void emptiness, hence resulting in it still being hollow and empty like always. World Cup, cheers, sleeplessness, verbal abuses to the opponent supporter – life cannot get more complicated, ahhhhh !!!

I wonder at times if I am doing the right thing – schooling, 4.0′s and vague attempts at it, work (me and my wishes, and desires, and irresponsibility), contemplations and conclusions, holding on and letting go, expectations and disappointments (and rejoices more often than not too), being aware and acting idiotic, thinking too hard about random scenarios and doing nothing about the real one… DAMN, life is complicated… and how simple it is at the same time. At times, I try to be “NORMAL” and try hard at convincing myself this is how life actually works – meeting deadlines, working for your future, nurturing your art, keeping up with expectations others have of you, taking out time to fulfill your “expected” duties, and etcetera etcetera (which comprehends everything. YES, EVERYTHING!!!). I’m am not cynical, or dejected, or in anyways whatsoever a FRUSTU as they say back home… Fortunately, I really have nothing to worry about (thank you, everyone contributing to that), but this is how I amuse myself. I find it amusing to question one’s (read own) purpose in life, about one’s aspirations and desires, and ponder and reflect at the creativity that emerges after that (creativity, hahaha, makes me feel better, so let me call it that), and question the worthiness of living an earthly life… Have no doubts, the day I have an answer to escaping this “blinded” path we walk on and  LIVE the way we all do, you won’t find me around… and hopefully, I won’t be missed as much either…