Its time I went to bed…but not just yet… Sitting in the living room, with light kinda Orange-y (the upright lamp has the thing you get in Thamel and put around lamps to make room kinda alive), makes me nostalgic about times in Thamel and Basantapur at nights when the lights would be so colorful and so peaceful, life seemed perfect…. and now, after a long day and countless nights of sleep-deprivation, I am at peace with myself. I am not happy, I am not complaining, I am not agitated and I am not bothered at this moment right here and now… and listening to a guy named “Selfbrush” (I found him in an article in wave, which I accidentally stumbled onto, I have to say, he sounds just right for where I am right now)…. and now, its Bohemian Rhapsody (always gives you the chills)… I can’t help stopping this smile I have on my face, and I have no reason for its being… I am just indifferent I guess… I wish everything were simple as it feels right now… everything apprehends EVERYTHING – life, family, world, people….and whatever else you can imagine… just imagine how it would feel like to have nothing to worry about – no future to scare you and no present to intimidate you and no past to haunt you… and you’re just living – grateful to be alive and excited to see what awaits you, living at its peak, where everything made sense, or nothing mattered, and thus you need not have to struggle to make any sense.
People have always fascinated me, and I have a huge appetite for life stories. I love reading about others and how they visualize life, their concept of living, their means to attaining happiness, their version of their life. And I have always believed, “Pictures speak a thousand words…and faces depict a thousand stories.” – and this is what I believe, and I came up with this line to summon my fascination with portraits and faces (the main reason I have taken photography classes). And I truly have no record of anyone else ever using it, so yea, I finally have my own one-liner – take that Shakespeare !!! And I love being amused by someone’s else account of their lives, the stories they share (I just read an account of a girl who is in love with a boy younger to her and what she had to say on that…another life-story).
I really don’t have anything to write about..But I feel like writing today… just writing whatever comes to my mind…But I have to be careful not to pour everything on my mind, some stuffs might not be rated E… lol…haha… anyhoo, I just feel like writing today – may be the rain on the porch outside has something to do with it, may be the visual ambience, the orangy light I talked about earlier has something to do with it…or may be its something entirely different in its whole entity that makes me want to write…but what do I have to say (If I had anything to say, I would have already posted a blog on that, but I really have nothing to talk about)..so if you think you’re wasting your time right now and that you need to stop reading this blog right now, go ahead, I won’t be offended or hurt…I just told you a while ago, I am indifferent right now… so nothing would bother me…
And the thought of the drawing class at 8 in the morning tomorrow is still somewhere in the back of my head trying to get me to sleep..but it knows, and so do I, that all its effort will go in vain and that I won’t listen to anything it has to say… I just don’t care as of this moment… but I love my classes this semester, all of it – well, almost !!!
I just stretched my arms and my back, and almost let out a yawn, meaning I better head off to sleep, or my art class tomorrow will be a disaster (which is an every-class thing by now, but hush, no one knows yet..) but I really want to write right now, I really do….about anything and everything and nothing..I wish I could master the art of nothingness, I will have attained the sole purpose of my existence… but now, I am about to leave…I think… well, I am…so here’s a good night from the orangy living room with sounds of Please the trees playing out loud… until the next time I see you, whenever it is, I hope you will have gained an insight on what you are seeking for and aren’t as clueless and random as I am, and as I have always been… and its going to rain the whole day tomorrow apparently… so here’s to the rain, the music, the light, the thoughts, the words, the nothingness… here’s one for life – Cheers !!!
if only u put more effort in ur life as in this blog. ah..
YOU ARE HILARIOUS. i love the comment you made to yourself. suffice to say, i think it applies to all ; )
and, a VERY nice one-liner. copyright that, i tell you.